Thoughts in Recovery

I haven't shared 100% with the readers of this blog about my own struggles. For about 12 years on a daily basis I struggled with the feelings of "I'm not worth it", "I don't deserve love", "I'm gross", "I must be perfect", "I hate myself and my body", "I'm not good enough", to name a few.

Today's struggles aren't so deeply engrained and they still have power. I experienced an emotionally difficult day yesterday. It all started with this feeling of not being "where I want to be", and then escalated when I saw a cute picture of a friend on Facebook. My immediate thought was "F**K!, I'm disgusting compared to her, she looks so fit and cute in that picture. If only I could..... I would be..... I should....." The cycle of negative thoughts continued for the next few hours. They began to get darker, and my emotions continued to escalate.

I utilized some of my coping skills such as taking a walk, attempting positive affirmations, and talking about it. They did seem to help overtime, but they were not an immediate fix. I sat in those emotions and thoughts, trying my very bets to hold on to my recovery. Sometimes I think the fear of falling back into my old behaviors is just as strong as the feelings of being in the behavior.

When someone gives me a suggestion, I shoot it down, I avoid their advice because I think to myself, if I try to do something different than what led me into recovery I am opening myself up to relapse. Then with further reflection, perhaps its just my fear of change, my fear of I could "loose control", and I feel like I have control in my recovery.... Wait, did I just think that? Isn't letting go of control a part of healing?

Just being there in that thought reminds me once again, that RECOVERY isn't an accomplishment, its a life long practice.

So with that said, last night I went to bed that night reminding myself that I am doing the best I can, and that there is more power in being creative than in being "perfect".

Forming Healthy Boundaries

Here are a couple tips to help get you started setting boundaries:

  1. Place value in yourself.

  2. Become aware of your emotions and what they mean.

  3. Be specific when you set a boundary.

  4. Be firm, but kind.

  5. Be ready, willing, and able to back up your words with actions.

In order to help you form this type of connect, self esteem and self worth is the best first step.

Benefits of Healthy Boundaries in a Relationship

Reasons why you'd want a relationship with healthy boundaries? Well it would look very similar to this list, most of the time:

  • You'd most likely feel calm, centered and focused. As well as safe, supportive, respectful, nonpunitive and peaceful.

  • You may feel taken care of, wanted, unconditionally accepted and loved just for existing and being alive.

  •  You feel part of something and not alone in your connection with other individuals.

  • You experience forgiving and being forgiven with little revenge or reminding of past offenses.

  • A relationship has a sense of directedness with plan and order.

  • You experience being free to be who you are rather than who you think you need to be for the other.

  • Encourages your personal growth and supports individuality

Personal Boundaries Quiz

A woman putting her hand on her friends arm. Representing a type of boundary identified with this boundaries quiz. If you need to adjust you can get support with boundaries counseling or interpersonal therapy in Denver or Broomfield, CO.

To start this quiz from WellMinded Counseling first close your eyes and picture who are the 3 closest people to you. Then develop a word that describes how you feel about the relationship.

Then, read each statement below and check the ones that fit for these 3 close relationships that you identified.  Be sure to answer with your initial gut response.  

Finally tally the number of checks you made under each category to determine where you currently are with personal boundaries.

Breaking Down the Boundaries Quiz

Weak boundaries or no boundaries:

____ I put the needs and wants of others before my own.

____ I find myself unable to say “no” to things.

____ In order to avoid conflict I agree with others.

____ I’m afraid to say “no” out of fear or guilt.

____ I allow others to speak for me.

____ In the relationship I find myself doing more than my share of participating.

____ I try to “fix” other people and their problems.

____ I attempt to control other people.

____ In relationships I find myself accepting poor treatment from others.

____ I don’t trust myself or others.

____ Total Number Checked

 

Healthy Boundaries:

____ I can comfortably express my true feelings regardless if they are seen as negative or positive.

____ In my relationships I’m able to set personal boundaries that protect my body, my energy, my time, and my other resources, without feeling guilty, fearful, or stressed.

____ I’m comfortable with other people expressing their emotions.

____ I’m able to respect others for who they are and do not attempt to change or “fix” them.

____ If the other person is hurting me I’m willing to end a relationship rather than let it continue.

____ I understand that conflict is a natural part of intimate relationships and even though it may not be enjoyable.

____ I respect other people’s feelings, needs, and preferences, and don't take them on as my own.

____ When I state my opinion I’m not afraid to disappoint or anger others.

____  I’m able to make my own decisions and look out for my interests while taking others’ perspectives into account.

____ I take responsibility for my own feelings while others can take responsibility for their own feelings.

____ Total Number Checked

Cartoon of a couple fighting then hugging. Showing types of rigid boundaries that can be identified with this boundaries quiz. Which can be improved with boundaries counseling in Broomfield or Denver, CO.

 

Rigid Boundaries:

____ I have a tough time acknowledging and expressing my feelings and rarely consider the feelings of others.

____ I often use anger and/or intimidation to get my way.

____ When people don’t view things the same way that I do I feel frustrated.

____ I keep people at an emotional distance.

____ I am uncomfortable with physical contact unless I initiate it, and even then it needs to be on my terms.

____ When others don’t do things according to my plan I criticize them.

____ I refuse to “play” if things aren’t done according to my rules, plans, or desires.

____ I become very upset if anyone borrows something of mine, even if they ask first.

____ In return for my help or generosity I always expect something.

____ I infrequently invite people into my “space” (home, office, physical).

____ Total Number Checked

 

What to Do With Your Answers From the Boundaries Quiz

Whichever category you checked the most items in determines the type of boundaries you have. Do your best to be accepting of where you are at, and recognize that's okay, you are doing the best you can. Plus you can always try harder and make changes. With that, ask yourself, do you want to make some adjustments to your personal boundaries to make them more balanced and healthy? If so, follow the blog from one of our relationship therapists and you'll find ways to help empower you to find ways to do and think about things differently.

Get Support From A Therapist in Boundaries Counseling in Colorado

4 friends walking down the street laughing. Showing the type of healthy boundaries you can build in boundaries counseling or interpersonal therapy in Denver, CO & Broomfield, CO. Unsure about if you need support? Take the boundaries quiz!

Ready to improve the types of boundaries that you have and transform your relationships? Want some support and guidance from a dedicated and understanding therapist? If your answer is yes then it might be time to consider trying interpersonal therapy. During boundaries counseling, you will be given the space to empower yourself and establish balanced boundaries.

At WellMinded Counseling we offer Counseling tailored to your needs in Broomfield, Denver, and online throughout Colorado. Take control of your personal boundaries and embark on a journey of growth by following these steps:

  1. Reach out to either our Colorado offices or our Tampa, FL office for a free consultation.

  2. Schedule your first therapy appointment after taking this boundaries questionnaire.

  3. Start your journey to healthier connections.

Other Therapy Services We Offer in Colorado & Florida