I follow a few different guru's in the field and one thing that became a topic of discussion is the idea of what we as individuals "deserve".
First off, you deserve to trust your body’s cues and nourish yourself, no matter what size you are. Respect yourself and your body by listening to it and allowing it to have a voice.
In order to get to that point, its helpful to stop restricting and stop feeling out of control with food, no matter what size you are. Food doesn't need to own you and your thoughts. The more we focus on our diet the more out of control we generally feel. Turn the dial on the volume of your inner critic and listen to your bodies sensations and feelings.
Its even important to recognize that you deserve, to be able to walk down the street without fear, no matter what size you are.
You deserve to be mindful, and in the here and now in the big, and small, everyday moments—no matter what size you are. You can be you and not have to shrink your body before you're allowed to live fully.
You can miss out on these kinds of opportunities—or not even realize what kinds of opportunities that are available if your are focused on your size. Acknowledging and practicing what you true passionate about is the greatest gift you can give yourself.
So let go out having your mind focused completely occupied by the rules and restrictions of diet culture. By jumping into a mindful of hope, freedom and joy for the future without diet culture controlling your happiness. If you blame yourself for falling into diet culture that can also be a trap that can hinder your joy, do you best to recognize that you deserve to be free of guilt, shame, and unrealistic expectations.