Recently I had an accident that resulted in a surgery, and weeks of pain. In the beginning of this journey I had thoughts of "why me", and "Oh my, my body is not functioning the way it always has". These among other thoughts inline with these influenced me to feel a higher level of anxiety than I typically face on a daily basis. I was scared of the pain, the surgery, of my body never being the same, I was frustrated that I had to ask for help to do simple things like getting dressed and doing my hair.
Suddenly there was a shift in perception, and no I didn't just become grateful or happy overnight, nor did humility really find me in a way that changed my gut reaction to asking for help. What did shift was, that I started to see this incident as a message to slow down. As an over-achiever and a "worrier" I go 80 mph almost all the time, but this pain has slowed me to about 45 mph, its helped my realize that I have people that will bend over backwards to help, and slowing down is okay. In fact its more than okay its what needed in order to have a balanced life.
What is most upsetting is that, I've done this before, gone 80 mph and wiped out from it. Hopefully this time I will hopefully learn and make an intentional choice to continue to seek balance and slow down in all areas of my life